Reasons to feel good

[Emre]

Over 1 month smoke free, which wasn't hard - at all.

Also, D-Block & S-te-Fan

[ThePrincipal]

Australian rules football league (not soccer) is back in 2 weeks - I am so desperate for my usual sport fix to come back <3

[macdz]

I've been doing K1 for 3 months and damn, it feels good to land punches and kicks. Breathe, dont focus on hard hits, focus on speed...loosen up and be light _0_ any experts here?

[Emre]

Finally got rid of the corona hair.

[macdz]

I've been approved by a native speaker as a certified English teacher biiiiiiiiiiitch. Plus, this is the school where native speakers are employed. I am gonna teach children/people English. Ha! I'll be going abroad and they will pay for my hotels etc, hourly rate is quite, quite. This is awesome! For those who were laughing at my English back then, a middle finger. Hope it's visible Nailed it... and this is my side job double pwnt

So Emre, this is to you. If you dont get producing process, get it. Seriously. Get there as hard as u can. 100% of yours always pays off. if you give up halfway through, you are done.

It's been 8 years...teaching people English. And here I am

[Phazelab]

Hey guys, I'd like to share an experience with you - or better how MDMA saved my life.

First of all I wanted to make sure that it's neither my intention to glorify drug use nor to influence people due to my bias. As some of you already know, I'm suffering from severe mental health issues, such as a complex PTSD, Borderline personality disorder with paranoid traits, depression, just to name a few. I think most of you can imagine how life's been for me for all the years. Around the end of 2019 things have worsened as I have stated in the "Reasons to feel sad" topic. However, two days ago I had an experience from which I really think that it has saved my life and opened my eyes.

I've already done most of all known drugs (urge to gain experience but also kind of treating myself), from Cannabis over LSD to Heroin. I did XTC two times (pills); the first time was horrible as I simultaneously started to vomit once I felt the effect - the second time was like hell aswell: Everything I saw has morphed to black dots which then became spiders - not cool for someone who panics a lot and suffers from Arachnophobia. When it comes to pure MDMA, I never took it alone, means when I used MDMA, other drugs were involved. The only effects I felt were chewing on my tongue and a little bit of vigilance, nothing more.

So, this Thursday I wanted to try it again. Together with my girlfriend (who was sober) and two good friends of mine (thanks for guiding my experience) I took around 230 mg of MDMA. The first dose of 100 mg didn't do shit, so I took another one about one and half an hour later. Holy fuck, here comes the bad feeling again. Oh god, I'm about to panic. This bad feeling, however, was suddenly non existent anymore. I remember my first impression: I was looking in the mirror and said: "Hey, I'm actually pretty. Why do I think I'm ugly? I don't understand?" My girlfriend answered that she doesn't know either. Idk, it kinda felt like I was observing myself but out of my own body and mind (does that even make sense)? For the first time ever I recognized all the paradoxa inside my personality. I felt like that this is how I was born and raised and that something inside of me has built a wall to numb this part of mine. I even called my mother, told her the truth (like I always do) and talked a lot about my emotions I were feeling in this moment. It's like now that I've made this experience (which I won't repeat), I found peace with myself. I feel completed. This experience has given me insight of my true self and I'm really thankful for that. I don't feel suffering anymore. I'm happy.

Sorry for the wall of text, but maybe it makes someone happy to see that someone has finally reached the point of happiness they were longing for.

I'm still confused due all those impressions and I really need to process all the things that have happened during those days. It's impossible to adequately describe what was going on in me.

Thanks for reading! And sorry for mistakes
P.S.: I wouln't recommend anybody to do drugs, especially not when having mental issues. I'm fully aware that this experience could've turned out really badly.

thank you for putting your experience to words. I have similar issues and had a similar therapeutic experience using psyllocibin truffles. Sadly the effects did not last for me but reading this post has given me the motivation to try it out again using microdoses.

[DjVero]

I've been approved by a native speaker as a certified English teacher biiiiiiiiiiitch. Plus, this is the school where native speakers are employed. I am gonna teach children/people English. Ha! I'll be going abroad and they will pay for my hotels etc, hourly rate is quite, quite. This is awesome! For those who were laughing at my English back then, a middle finger. Hope it's visible Nailed it... and this is my side job double pwnt

So Emre, this is to you. If you dont get producing process, get it. Seriously. Get there as hard as u can. 100% of yours always pays off. if you give up halfway through, you are done.

It's been 8 years...teaching people English. And here I am

Congrats man. I'm an English teacher as well. It kinda depends who you're gonna teach, but overall it's really nice, so good luck

[macdz]

I've been approved by a native speaker as a certified English teacher biiiiiiiiiiitch. Plus, this is the school where native speakers are employed. I am gonna teach children/people English. Ha! I'll be going abroad and they will pay for my hotels etc, hourly rate is quite, quite. This is awesome! For those who were laughing at my English back then, a middle finger. Hope it's visible Nailed it... and this is my side job double pwnt

So Emre, this is to you. If you dont get producing process, get it. Seriously. Get there as hard as u can. 100% of yours always pays off. if you give up halfway through, you are done.

It's been 8 years...teaching people English. And here I am

Congrats man. I'm an English teacher as well. It kinda depends who you're gonna teach, but overall it's really nice, so good luck

Thanks man. I have been teaching business people. I took up finance studies CFA. I am getting diploma in a week I guess lvl 1. You cannot imagine how much work I gotta put It's huge but it's fun at the same time.

Referring to the posts above. I've had the same problems but it was diet connected, seriously. I've messed it up. That was exactly the same thing you describe. One hell of a shit, anxiety mostly. I was freaking out of losing weight because I really cared about it. That was my aim. I couldn't be complete without it. That was paranoid and I couldn't defeat it. The more I thought about putting on weight, the more I was losing it. Can you picture it? I stopped watching horror movies because it scared the shit out of me. Go figure why. I won't be elaborating on this much. What I did, I've changed the diet which was NOT STRICT ANYMORE and kept myself busy. I started to do swimming and kickboxing and I am left with kixkboxing cause I fucking love it. When you swim, you also don't think about your life being under water. My point is: get yourself busy and the keyword is TRY. Trying is a thing we are afraid of. Once we try, things can change. When I train, I don't think about anything but focusing on an opponent or what coach says. I completely immerse in it. It has helped me a lot.

People do drugs because they don't try things they would like to or they always dreamed of (I always wanted to be a ninja lol, kidding). That's why we become vulnerable and we try things are easily accesible without any strain...

so keep trying if you love it but if you feel that it is not the way you wanna lead, just get it off. It's the matter of beautiful selection to make our needs suit the concept of our life? Whatever

[Emre]

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[ThePrincipal]

my Aussie rules football team are back in action tomorrow night <3