Reasons to feel sad

[adamross]

I can only wish you good luck Vero as I can't really help :/

As for me... well, I'm trying to word what my problem is and I can't lol. What I want to do the most is to lay on the bed, look at the ceiling and basically do NOTHING. Seriously. I don't want to engage in any activity that is much different than the aforementioned (yeah, I'm writing this comment tho), I don't want any people around me, I have no sugar-coated thoughts, telling me that "yes, this is going to change it a little bit for the better" because it won't. Yet I'm not depressed, I don't want to die, not angry, not bored or anything and can't even decide if it feels shit or not. Helplessness much? Impossible to forget about that in general so I'm just waiting for the moment to feel it a bit less than now, I'm sure it's coming sooner or later...

(why don't I have a few days off ahead already?)

Kinda feels like a burnout. I had the same for the last months, i was killed in worked basically, no time at all for myself, for my family, music..my health is getting worse because i sat like 12-14 hours per day and had the exact same thoughts as you. I'm better now, but the last two months were hell..

[battlejellyfish]

^ Luckily it hardly has anything to do with my job, because I think in the point of the type of job it could be worse in terms of people around you, your environment, your close possibilities and so on. And also it's capitalism, so majority of people are working for wages, has little or no word/power/capital in deciding corporate aims, it's benefiting the bourgeoisie... you know, the usual stuff. And whichever workplace you're going to, it's still going to be same in general and I, and many people don't see too much hope for a major change in the near future. Feels like shit :/ And as I can see in your comment and as it's "used to be", job can really take control over your life at the expense of other much important things you've mentioned. But yeah, we still need money some way... These circumstances have some to do with my helplessness and it was a bit too much a few days ago. It's better now though. And now of course I think there are things to be improved in my personal life but it's impossible forget about this "little thing" and honestly I don't really want to. I don't want to tell myself lies. Good luck to you to survive - big words, eh?

Trantix: I'm going to check it out later. I think I've seen one of his videos in connection with the US election system but I don't know his opinion on other issues.

[Emre]

Having been suicidally depressed for 2018-2020.. taking meds since March 2020, life became beautiful, and lately i'm getting way too much 'moods' again.. worried.

[Trantix]

Having been suicidally depressed for 2018-2020.. taking meds since March 2020, life became beautiful, and lately i'm getting way too much 'moods' again.. worried.

last time i got trapped into that mood, it was last month / early august
but i developed my own tools, so I'm getting out of it every time

repeat 69 times :
- i am a great human being, i can do plenty of cool things
- if i do nothing it doesn't matter, many people are doing nothing and are happy like that
- if someone has to die immediately, it's not me but the unhealthy scumbags who ruin my life
- ... secret bonus line :

Spoiler

- to rave is life, hakken is in our blood

Those middle 2 are really interesting to think about. I like them and I'll have to remember them for the future for myself and to share.

[Soundphase]

Don't find any hard dance producers in Ireland. Everyone wants to do either techno or house ...

[Soundphase]

Don't find any hard dance producers in Ireland. Everyone wants to do either techno or house ...

let's search "hardstyle ireland" at facebook lol

...

https://www.facebook.com/sonasdj/
https://www.facebook.com/TwistedRawcore/
https://www.facebook.com/fergandreid/

Although most of these guys are in the north which is part of the UK, I'm in the republic. And I'm not a fan of their styles

[Soundphase]

Although most of these guys are in the north which is part of the UK, I'm in the republic. And I'm not a fan of their styles

... ye look there's some dude with a mask too : https://www.facebook.com/PunchOfDeath.IE ...

He's the local serial killer

just kidding...don't know these guys but they seem fun anyway. I think it's not a time for me to collab really because of spiritual reasons. I was just looking around

[ceero]

My best friends girlfriend (and also my good friend) commited suicide yesterday :/ and here I am, stuck in a different country, unable to travel back home to support him and go to her funeral. Seriously, go fuck yourself already corona.

[Faber93]

My best friends girlfriend (and also my good friend) commited suicide yesterday :/ and here I am, stuck in a different country, unable to travel back home to support him and go to her funeral. Seriously, go fuck yourself already corona.

Oh shit! that's definitely one of the worst situation possible during this period. My condoleances for your loss, stay strong

[DjVero]

My best friends girlfriend (and also my good friend) commited suicide yesterday :/ and here I am, stuck in a different country, unable to travel back home to support him and go to her funeral. Seriously, go fuck yourself already corona.

That sucks, take care. Isn't it possible to join with a video connection through one of your/his friends who may also attend the funeral? I know it isn't the same, but that way you might still be able to sort of be there and show your support? Or is that not allowed with Czech funerals or something?