This. I mean i'm just 22 but fuck, can't believe it's nearly 2020Vicious wrote:Feeling fucking old, feel like i've been in a time machine, it's 2019 where did the fucking years go?
Reasons to feel sad
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lilfrenchidiot
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Re: Reasons to feel sad
Gatekeeping is voor kankeridiooten
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lilfrenchidiot
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lmao what the fuckEmre wrote:Tfw 2043 is closer than 1995
unbelievable
Gatekeeping is voor kankeridiooten
Yeah, been doing that for a few days now. Trying to experiment with dubstep, drum & bass and even progressive house tracks. Differs a lot when you're used to 200+.Soundphase wrote:Try and do another genre of music (even on a different tempo), that's what helps me when hardstyle feels weirdValadia wrote:Been losing inspiration to make music, whilst people tell me I'm improving quickly. Just feels like I'm "wasting time" or smth, not producing music. Feels weird.
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bassfaceBAM
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No reason at all actually. Find myself thinking about the worst type of stuff. It's like my head is a dangerous place to be. Music is my biggest mistake but even that is not helping like it did before. I can't be bothered speaking to anyone and I'm tired having to smile and laugh. Because I'm normally quite extroverted I have work colleagues asking what's up. Nothing is up. Just can't be fucked. I'm always tired, my back is killing me, I'm grumpy as fuck and been a shit dad, snapping at the slightest thing.
I've got some minor money problems but nothing drastic and certainly not anything I can't overcome. I just feel down. Been this way for weeks. For no reason at all I get a lump in my throat like I want to cry. I'm acting like a fuckin drama Queen and I cannot figure out why. Got a great family, my wife is awesome and jobs secure. But when I'm on my own I just want to blow my fuckin brains out.
Sorry for the downer I just feel like I better type it out maybe release whatever bullshit I've got inside.
I've got some minor money problems but nothing drastic and certainly not anything I can't overcome. I just feel down. Been this way for weeks. For no reason at all I get a lump in my throat like I want to cry. I'm acting like a fuckin drama Queen and I cannot figure out why. Got a great family, my wife is awesome and jobs secure. But when I'm on my own I just want to blow my fuckin brains out.
Sorry for the downer I just feel like I better type it out maybe release whatever bullshit I've got inside.
Bro you are not the only one. Sometimes parenthood, that you need to give and give all the time, and not receiving much is really exhausting. sometimes I feel the same. No free time or you need to prioritize your family no matter what can be brutal.
I had to argue a lot with my wife for her to understand, if I don't have personal charge time, it will cost us a lot, I won't enjoy our time together etc.
My tip is that you need to find some time for yourself. Just watch a movie, play a game, write music anything..
Then everything will be brighter and better. Keep your head up mate!
If you want to talk just drop me a pm.
I had to argue a lot with my wife for her to understand, if I don't have personal charge time, it will cost us a lot, I won't enjoy our time together etc.
My tip is that you need to find some time for yourself. Just watch a movie, play a game, write music anything..
Then everything will be brighter and better. Keep your head up mate!
If you want to talk just drop me a pm.
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Bye Hardstyle. 2007-2021. Thanks for all the love.
Thank you GHF and Harderstate for the fun times.
Bye Hardstyle. 2007-2021. Thanks for all the love.
Thank you GHF and Harderstate for the fun times.
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bassfaceBAM
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Much appreciated adamross, I'll be OK I'm sure, just in a bit of a funk. And my help for what it's worth is there too.adamross wrote:Bro you are not the only one. Sometimes parenthood, that you need to give and give all the time, and not receiving much is really exhausting. sometimes I feel the same. No free time or you need to prioritize your family no matter what can be brutal.
I had to argue a lot with my wife for her to understand, if I don't have personal charge time, it will cost us a lot, I won't enjoy our time together etc.
My tip is that you need to find some time for yourself. Just watch a movie, play a game, write music anything..
Then everything will be brighter and better. Keep your head up mate!
If you want to talk just drop me a pm.
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battlejellyfish
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RIP Matti Nykanen :/ He wasn't on the headlines by his good attitude afaik but still remains as a ski jumping legend on his golden days.
Yeah he did some weird life decisions, but every finn still loved him.The Convicted wrote:RIP Matti Nykanen :/ He wasn't on the headlines by his good attitude afaik but still remains as a ski jumping legend on his golden days.
Random story: I was once in a massive hangover buying coffee, and so was Matti. We both proceeded to find milk together. Weird coincidence, but funny one
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battlejellyfish
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I feel like shit, can't say it in another way. There are many things I feel I'm interested in, but none of them is THE thing I could absolutely commit myself into. I don't even know if it should be a person or just something or more things keeping me busy. I don't even know if even that's the way to do and maybe I'm doing it right now by experimenting.