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Hello dear forum, here's the sister from Alex, known as "akachaostheory" here .
We (I and his family) got the sad news that he passed away around a half hour ago due a car-accident .
As we all know about his passion about hardstyle and that he was in this forum we decided to make this public .
He has written a text about why and what were the reasons for his sudden death . I give my best to translate it (sorry for my bad english):

"The life is unfair . More than enough it wants to see us down at the bottom and expect us to stand up again and continue like we did before . But what if we don't have any power and hope any more ? If we are trapped in hopelesness and you feel alone ? If you know that things aren't going to change ? Wherefore do you have to stand up again ? Wherefore ? I admit that this are very ignorant thoughts . But in cases like mine it is very hard to think about their loved ones and get addicted (???) to their egoism and hopelessness . I am exactly at this point . I do not have any hope . I am done with live . For everybody there is a point to say "goodbye" . For me it has come to this point . I don't want to live my live at this way, don't want to be lost in my thoughts and don't want to be alone . Dreams were dreamt and now it is the time to wake up . But in my case it is like going to sleep and never wake up again . It hurts me and I'm sorry that I leave you alone . That I put my evil (?) over everything and that I can't think of you . I will all hurt you and disapoint . But I don't know what do to now . To be honest there isn't a meaning of living my life . "


Original german text:

Oh my god I can't believe it, this is so sad and unexpected

Rest in peace man. Fuck depression, not enough awareness about this shit...

OMG this can't be true, I can't believe it I have no words atm. Some days ago, he asked for some free music in this forum and now he's gone rest in peace buddy.

Oh my god, hard to believe for me that a human being can get to this state of mind. It's so sad, he posted about his depressions before, but I never ever thought it would get this far....

Rest in peace man, you seemed like a cool dude in the forums

akachaostheory:We (I and his family) got the sad news that he passed away around a half hour ago due a car-accident .

I know I shouldn't ask this, but you log in to this Hardstyle forum 30 minutes after you heared that he died and post his farewell letter in here?

That somewhat weird, I'm sorry.

That's kinda unreal and came unexpected for me. Rest in peace man. My condolences to "you" and the rest of the family and friends. It's always sad to lose someone.

oh no, this cant be true My condolences to you and all your loved once

Rest in peace



There is always love out there

Wait, car-accident and he wrote a goodbye letter?

In any case I hope he found some rest and is finally at peace.
My deepest condolences to you and your entire family, as suicides (which is how I interpret this "situation" as) are always hardest on those left behind.

Rest in Peace, Alex from Germany. If there is another life after death, may it be better for you than this one was.

Fuck.

There aren't any words for this kind of event. I just hope he didn't suffer in the end. Depression is something out of this world. No one should have to go through with that.

Rest in peace man.

Oh man.. I didn't think it was that serious... RIP man.

Absolutely at a loss for words.

Sorry for your loss

Guys, he was dedicated to hardstyle, so I think his sister decided to share it with this community as soon as possible, because it actually concerns us too... we should respect the way of it, if they think it's good.

Well, I have no words actually... waking up for this tragic accident today and all the things about him just ran through my head, seeing his joy in listening to many stuff here or his struggle in the sad topic and I thought something wasn't okay. But I was very glad he was posting about positive stuff that it's "okay now" and he's going to be fine... and there comes this. Suicide is a serious thing, just take care of anyone. It's a sudden realization or an event planned way before. It's worse when you see no signs of it... whatever.

RIP... nyugodj békében (hopefully his sister gets it like Alex might do, too).

Oh man this is very tragic to hear.This got to me because my sister also struggles with depression and often cries and says that she wants to die. I hope i will never get to witness her death like that.

I also struggled with depression and feeling lonely. But my cure was to keep my mind focused on studying,and that helped me bacause my mind was busy with learning. Learning new stuff was my cure for not thinking about bad stuff,and it was good because i kept my brain focused.



Rest is peace Alex.