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Postby Katsching » 29 Nov 2019, 15:36

Coincidently, I have just booked my tickets for Anjunadeep Explorations in June, but all I can think of now is that I hope everyone in Albania will recover and there wont be any further corpses and no more earthquakes. Be strong!
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Postby ThePrincipal » 05 Jan 2020, 07:19

Australia being on fire :(
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Postby SKRWD » 05 Jan 2020, 09:35

Idk. I feel like I have to get it off my chest. After I stopped taking my medications some months ago I immediately felt relieved AND for the first time ever in my life I realised what an emotional wreck I am. These pills just numbed me, took the focus on my severe issues away and made me artificially happy. Doctors either told me that it's without any doubt necessary or they said that either pill won't help me (and I tried nearly every psychotropic except Methylphenidate because I won't get the ADHD diagnosis due to drug abuse in my history). I was fully aware that this therapy thing wasn't a long term solution but holy fuck. My problems only worsened.

Without consideration I fell back into my old patterns of behaviour, started abusing drugs (I've always used them here and there but I'm talking about REAL abuse), for example I snorted for four days straight without any sleep, completely drained, just to be admitted to a hospital due to a psychotic episode in which soldiers were coming in order to kidnap, interrogate and torture me. I know it sounds absurd and I'm glad to got over it. But. Besides the obvious severe issues, I'm currently in a black hole, full of self compassion, guilt, pity and remorse, thus resulting in asshole like behaviour towards everyone around me. It feels that I'm yet again alienating myself from everything that is good and precious to me. I broke up with my girlfriend in an emotional outburst of paranoia, I'm about to lose my apartment and my apprenticeship and I honestly don't have a way out of this misery. I don't know what to do right now and I'm not expecting you to offer a solution to this question. But it's relieving to hear that I'm not alone with these problems...

TLDR: I need help.
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Postby adamross » 05 Jan 2020, 20:58

Stay strong bro. And seek help. If you want to talk just shoot a pm.
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Postby Emre » 07 Jan 2020, 01:13

I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.
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Postby Valadia » 07 Jan 2020, 01:43

Emre:I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.


I'm sad because of the complete opposite. I love the cold, atm it's way too warm for me.
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Postby Emre » 07 Jan 2020, 01:48

Valadia:
Emre:I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.


I'm sad because of the complete opposite. I love the cold, atm it's way too warm for me.


Brain checks out. :omg:

I am literally wearing my thick winter coat inside at the moment (not even a joke). With a t shirt + hoodie underneath.
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Postby Valadia » 07 Jan 2020, 14:30

Emre:
Valadia:
Emre:I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.


I'm sad because of the complete opposite. I love the cold, atm it's way too warm for me.


Brain checks out. :omg:

I am literally wearing my thick winter coat inside at the moment (not even a joke). With a t shirt + hoodie underneath.


Mate, what xD
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Postby ceero » 07 Jan 2020, 15:11

Emre:I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.

x10000, fuck winter, fuck cold, fuck the sunset at 4pm. I feel like im a different person once the first spring days hit and this shit starts to fade away. If it was up to me it would be 30+ degrees all year. Relocating permanently somewhere to Australia or Portugal or Miami or something where you dont need to deal with this winter bullshit one day is high on my priority list.
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Postby Emre » 07 Jan 2020, 15:18

ceero:
Emre:I fucking hate winter. I always have the heater at 22c and wear multiple layers of clothing and still my fucking skin is freezing off.

x10000, fuck winter, fuck cold, fuck the sunset at 4pm. I feel like im a different person once the first spring days hit and this shit starts to fade away. If it was up to me it would be 30+ degrees all year. Relocating permanently somewhere to Australia or Portugal or Miami or something where you dont need to deal with this winter bullshit one day is high on my priority list.


I also would get the fuck out of here if financial/contact with family/my girlfriend who doesn't want to leave/etc reasons weren't in the way.

Also wonder if there are studies about the mental effects of winter, I've always been on the depressive side but it's 100x worse in the winter. Every day is gray as fuck, 0 sunshine and it rains way too often. I get out of bed, open my curtains, and my day is ruined already.
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Postby dolanpls » 07 Jan 2020, 16:33

Winter is fine when its not dark, dont mind cold lol. But yeah there are studies about mental effects of darkness and they are massive problem in the north of Finland where you get light for about 2-3 hours. It's called something like seasonal affective disorder.
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Postby lilfrenchidiot » 07 Jan 2020, 18:27

Agreed with Valadia, I don’t even go out (except for work) when it’s above 25°C
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Postby Trantix » 08 Jan 2020, 00:11

I personally prefer the cold to hot. When I'm hot, I don't feel like doing anything and I get frustrated easier. But when it's cold, that doesn't happen. I also prefer when it's dark outside. Like recently where I live, there's been dark clouds for like a week now and I love the aesthetic of it.
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Postby Valadia » 08 Jan 2020, 23:46

lilfrenchidiot:Agreed with Valadia, I don’t even go out (except for work) when it’s above 25°C


I like warmth in the summer aswell (not above 30 pls) but I don't like this limbo of 'too cold to wear no jacket, and when I wear one, I'll start sweating after some time' And being a big boii that's not what's very nice.
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