When did you discover that your voice is such a nice one?
I will be absolutely honest -- I hate my voice! First, and foremost, I am a voice actor. This is how I got my start -- one day I wanted to be Sailor Moon, so I started hanging around the online dubbing/voice acting communities where we all made fan projects. Over time I decided there was more to voice acting than just being Sailor Moon (right around the time I turned 12 years old, lol) -- I started learning how to mix audio, record, write my own scripts, and so on... It was something I enjoyed more than choir at the time, so I just stuck with that.
How did you come to genres like hardstyle/hardcore?
(I don't ask this, because you're a women!)
I used to be really in to the warez/hacking/demo scene stuff. One of my friends from the Netherlands ran a known warez website, and we became friends (I was maybe 14 at the time)... I was really in to metal, and he was in to this stuff called "hardcore". He sent me "Artwork" by Art of Fighters, and the rest was history.
From there, I started exploring various sub-genres...
How do you like men? Or how do you handle men?
I like my men docile, and kissing my feet.
Just kidding... honestly, it's normal to have really strong feelings for a person when you work on music together. I think it's really the only way good, and passionate music can happen -- when two people click. I've had some bigger artists want to work with me where the spark just wasn't there, and I've just felt "Meh..." about it... I really try my best to get to know them. Sometimes I make a friend, sometimes I don't.
I think the most important part is knowing when to draw the line. A lot of those guys come off as "crazy" for their fans, but it's really an act. If you talk to them in private, when the lights are off and everyone's going home... you'll probably find some of the nicest/most polite people, and in many cases: some of the most quiet people. Not to say EVERY producer is like this, there are obviously some assholes everywhere... but more often than not, you'll find the complete opposite from what you see on stage. Especially those Endymion guys! ;P Really though, they are very sweet guys and I consider them people I absolutely trust, and have for a few years now.
You are very self confident (not arrogant), have you always been a power woman or did you get this after becoming a vocalist so you have/had to handle with assholes.
Honestly, it's not so much because I'm a vocalist, it's just the way I am. I've always been very outspoken and rebellious about things, and the pursuit of knowledge has always been important for me. I try my best to be aware of many social issues in general (racism, theories of privilege, social psychology, gender identity issues, religious freedom, personal freedom, etc), and there's always been a lot of women in my family who describe themselves as "feminists"... Through these concepts, you begin to see things a little differently. A lot of people think "Oh, feminists just hate men! They are a bunch of bra-burning dykes!! BOOO!!!" but I realised it's something much more than that and more about standing up for yourself as an equal. Of course, you also have people with extreme opinions... but not all of them are like that. I used to be the type of person who had a lot of self-hate and misogynistic tendencies, because quite frankly I didn't understand any better. Then I grew up, and I realised I don't have to hate myself just to make friends, and if I need to go all "OMG I LOOOOVE PORN! OMG WOMEN ARE BITCHES AND WHOOOORES!" just so guys will like me or whatever... no thanks. Maybe they aren't the type of people who should be in my life.
You absolutely do need to have a tough skin, and most importantly, you need to have a GOOD set of friends. A lot of stupid shit happens in these scenes, and sometimes I -SWEAR- I am back in highschool again!! I think also if you understand what you're up against (ie: why things happen the way they happen), it alleviates some of the frustration in these types of industries.
So, in a way, this type of attitude/confidence helps me not take "no" for an answer. It motivates me not to just shut my mouth and let people walk all over me, and it motivates me to stand up and speak up when there is a problem.
Would you ever consider doing the vocals of a hardstyle-track live?
So lets say, Zatox ft. Nikkita live, with instrumental versions of the tracks and you singing live?
Haha! I've considered this, actually! I'd love to do a really entertaining kind of live. It's a pipe-dream, but I'd love to create like a concert within a concert -- with music specially made specifically to be recreated live, sung/MC'd live, with cool things happening. I have nothing against DJs or DJing, but I think people are being a little too safe, and I guess I just want to shake things up a bit. It could work, it could not... This way each set can be a new take on things, still keep people dancing, but also give them something to see on stage, too.
I would just really love to create hardstyle/hardcore music where people can quote and wear it like a badge of the type of music they listen to, without reciting a Jay-Z or DMX vocal, or that involves more than just "Hardstyle!!", or selling out the genre.
In reality for as much as I've got right now: I really would like to split DJing and MCing for my own stuff.
I'm moving out to Europe pretty soon, so between working a job and working on music... I've really got to hit the ground running when I'm out there. Hopefully we can see some interesting stuff.